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.That's it."Our provisions are holding out fairly well.All the same, we have to feed the office staff, which means dipping into our stock every week, so it's not as much as it seems.We have enough coal and firewood, candles too."Let's all make little moneybags to hide in our clothes so we can take our money with us if we need to leave here.""We can make lists of what to take first in case we have to run for it, and pack our knapsacks in advance.""When the time comes, we'll put two people on the lookout, one in the loft at the front of the house and one in the back.""Hey, what's the use of so much food if there isn't any water, gas or electricity?""We'll have to cook on the wood stove.Filter the water and boil it.We should clean some big jugs and fill them with water.We can also store water in the three kettles we use for canning, and in the washtub.""Besides, we still have about two hundred and thirty pounds of winter potatoes in the spice storeroom."All day long that's all I hear.Invasion, invasion, nothing but invasion.Arguments about going hungry, dying, bombs, fire extinguishers, sleeping bags, identity cards, poison gas, etc., etc.Not exactly cheerful.A good example of the explicit warnings of the male contingent is the following conversation with Jan:Annex: "We're afraid that when the Germans retreat, they'll take the entire population with them."Jan: "That's impossible.They haven't got enough trains."Annex: "Trains? Do you really think they'd put civilians on trains? Absolutely not.Everyone would have to hoof it." (Or, as Dussel always says, per pedes apostolorum.)Jan: "I can't believe that.You're always looking on the dark side.What reason would they have to round up all the civilians and take them along?" Annex: "Don't you remember Goebbels saying that if the Germans have to go, they'll slam the doors to all the occupied territories behind them?" Jan: "They've said a lot of things."Annex: "Do you think the Germans are too noble or humane to do it? Their reasoning is: if we go under, we'll drag everyone else down with us." Jan: "You can say what you like, I just don't believeAnnex: "It's always the same old story.No one wants to see the danger until it's staring them in the face."Jan: "But you don't know anything for sure.You're just making an assumption." Annex: "Because we've already been through it all ourselves, First in Germany and then here.What do you think's happening in Russia?"Jan: "You shouldn't include the Jews.I don't think anyone knows what's going on in Russia.The British and the Russians are probably exaggerating for propaganda purposes, just like the Germans."Annex: "Absolutely not.The BBC has always told the truth.And even if the news is slightly exaggerated, the facts are bad enough as they are.You can't deny that millions of peace-loving citizens in Poland and Russia have been murdered or gassed."I'll spare you the rest of our conversations.I'm very calm and take no notice of all the fuss.I've reached the point where I hardly care whether I live or die.The world will keep on turning without me, and I can't do anything to change events anyway.I'll just let matters take their course and concentrate on studying and hope that everything will be all right in the end.Yours, AnneTUESDAY, FEBRUARY 8, 1944Dear Kitty,I can't tell you how I feel.One minute I'm longing for peace and quiet, and the next for a little fun.We've forgotten how to laugh-I mean, laughing so hard you can t stop.This morning I had "the giggles"; you know, the kind we used to have at school.Margot and I were giggling like real teenagers.Last night there was another scene with Mother.Margot was tucking her wool blanket around her when suddenly she leapt out of bed and carefully examined the blanket.What do you think she found? A pin! Mother had patched the blanket and forgotten to take it out.Father shook his head meaningfully and made a comment about how careless Mother is.Soon afterward Mother came in from the bathroom, and just to tease her I said, "Du bist doch eine echte Rabenmutter." [Oh, you are cruel.]Of course, she asked me why I'd said that, and we told her about the pin she'd overlooked.She immediately assumed her haughtiest expression and said, "You're a fine one to talk.When you're sewing, the entire floor is covered with pins.And look, you've left the manicure set lying around again [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]